I was left thinking about Panic Attacks this week. I had my last irrational "Panic Attack" 5 years ago in 2010. During therapy no trigger was ever established and these attacks became the illness. Over time I have drawn my own conclusions. I think in my particular case I was completely ignorant to what these attack actually were. Even though I had read book after book telling me the physical reasons for them it didn't sink in. It was like watching a film with a difficult story line and never quite getting it. The panic became my attacker, the bully in my life. The punishment I gave myself. The persecutor that became persecuted. However things changed when I was told I had been bullied in my early childhood, that's when the penny dropped. I then began to slowly realise that my Panic Attacks were created by my own defence mechanism. These attacks were protecting me. That is how I see them now.
Next meeting on Monday 27th July will be our last at the Oasis and Thursday 30th July will be our last meeting at Hesters Way Baptist Church, before we break up for August. Although we hope to have a social get together during the summer so watch this space
Hope the coming weeks are good to you all.